So I had the not-so-crazy idea to watch the anime series I watched back when I was still a budding fan. I thought it’d be fun to see how my perception of things changed even though I’ve got nothing solid to compare my current impressions with my past ones. Anyways, I decided to start with Gravitation because it was the first BL series I’ve ever watched. Me being a fangirl, I thought it had some significance.
The first time I watched Gravitation it was September 2006. I remember seeing an ad for it in one of the Shojo Beat issues I had at the time sometime beforehand but I couldn’t find it anywhere on the net. Ah, what a newb I was. Anyways, not long after there was a girl who talked to me about it and I got interested so I went looking again. Luckily for me someone started uploading it on Veoh exactly then.
To those who don’t know the story, I’ll summarized it a bit. Gravitation is an anime about a guy named Shuichi who wants to make his two-man (with his best friend Hiro) band “Bad Luck” famous and how he manages his relationship with a successful novelist named Yuki whom he’s fallen in love with. There’s a lot of ups and downs in Shuichi’s life and its mostly related to when things are going well or not with his so-called lover Yuki.
Honestly, I don’t exactly remember how I reacted to Gravitation back then. I think I wasn’t fully aware that Shuichi and Yuki were men before watching and after the first episode I was really embarrassed. I looked away when they kissed in elevator. That I remember, but I don’t remember what I thought exactly. I really didn’t care about the fact that they were both men. It didn’t bother me one bit since I didn’t grow up having any prejudice against people for their sexual orientations. Well, I’ll admit I thought it was weird … but that’s perfectly normal. It was more the fact there was actualyl kissing and stuff that embarrassed me. Wow, innocence. Then again, the only anime I’ve seen before Gravitation was DNAngel and Karin … not counting the whole bunch on YTV.
By episode three or four, I was already completely in love with the anime. Ryuichi, Shuichi’s idol/god of music, was probably what did me in. It didn’t take long for Shuichi to start looking really cute to me and for Yuki to look extremely handsome and cool. Gravitation was the first anime I’ve ever fangirled about. Probably … not counting Inuyasha.
Watching it again:
I watched the whole series again about a week ago. It was odd how I understood the anime so much better now. It was also so much more entertaining and man, did I do a lot of fangirling. How is it that I found Gravitation embarrassing before? A certain Antique Bakery was ten times more embarrassing.
Although, watching the series after having read all the remixes changes your perception a little bit too. There was a whole bunch of slash that was there and that I haven’t noticed before. Sakano and Tohma for example. Now that I see it all over again, they’re kind of cute. Also, Yuki seems way much less … cooler than before. Hard to think he’s a cold hearted bastard when he’s just a giant teddy bear like the rest of the cold-hearted semes out there.
Another thing I realized myself thinking while I was watching, was how much I actually really love this series. The anime is really really crappy now and then (I realized this now) but that’s normal. Gravitation isn’t exactly a new anime. Maybe it’s the nostalgia of watching something from so long ago but how, I can’t remember how much times I thought “man I love this show” while I re-watched this.
Anyways, from my memory, I didn’t really think anything different of Gravitation back then and now. I guess the only difference was that I was just an embarrassed fangirl back then and now I’m an open one. Though, I remember fangirling a lot to my friend about Ryuichi and I ended up making her watch it too.
(Maybe they aren’t lying when they tell me I haven’t changed. I’d only like to think I got somewhat more mature over the years at least)