The Cherry Blossoms are angsting
Two episodes ago, I said “I expect the baby to be born whithin two episodes at this rate” … Ugh. I should’ve realized sooner what the baby being born so early would mean. Stupid me; forgetting the important details like this. Even if I still disliked Nagisa like before, I still wouldn’t be able to watch this episode properly.
I don’t really want to write this post but I feel I need to sort out my thoughts somehow. There’s 8 episodes left and I can pretty much guess what KyoAni plans to do with them. If, after this, we’re still getting a happy ending, I hope it’ll be different from Toei’s Clannad Movie ending. I’ll be very disapointed in KyoAni in that case.
The months fly by in the first segment of the episode; going through Christmas, New Year’s and Valentines day. On New Year’s, the whole high-school gang comes to visit the Okazaki household. At this point, I still hadn’t figured out the drama would come so I simply enjoyed the warmth of the reunion. Plus, I gotta hint of one-sided love from Sunohara to Tomoya which made me fangirl.
That bittersweet/melancholic face Sunohara made just uh, hit me. Or am I the only one who thinks it plainly says that Sunohara doesn’t want to call Tomoya “Tomoya” because he’s been calling him “Okazaki” all along. For a second, I thought Sunohara would say “Tomoya”. I’d fangirl about that but I think the “guy-Okazaki” thing was even better.
And then comes the flashback. This is where I went “Oh no …” and got a real bad feeling. But Sunohara was funny the next second, I ignored the omen. I think I was just in denial at that point though. The following scenes made it obvious that Nagisa was going to … ugh. Illusionary world in the middle of an episode, the city changing, the big snowfall … Well, it made it obvious. Doesn’t make the whole labor part of the episodes any less hard to watch. I don’t think I’ve ever watched a labor scene in an anime before. Not that that has anything to do with anyhing. I’m just rambling because it’s just hard to talk about.
The scene was beyond well done. Perfect even I disregard my own feelings. I mean, it must’ve been real good because it was so hard to watch. I cried. A bit. I’ve listened something even more tragic recently so this was relatively alright for me. (I’m in denial, I think)
I’m going to cry whenever I hear Dango Daikazoku now. The song just sounds more and more sad as CLANNAD went on. I wonder if that was done on purpose. I used to listen to it with a smile on my face but now I want to cry hearing it. (It’s like how I want to cry every time I hear “Continued Story, Hitomi” … though, that song sounded sad to me from the start)
I didn’t take much screenshots of the labor scene. I’m sorry, I just couldn’t. I felt like it’d be taking pictures of someone dying … for real. Okay, yeah, that’s really stupid I know … but I just couldn’t. (Not that it matters but, I recently saw the movie again. I disliked Nojima Kenji’s Tomoya before and now I’m wondering why because it was actually a great portrayal. Or maybe I’m saying that because I’ve been listening to many NojiKen Drama CDs lately)
I was in a sort of state of uh … emptiness that even after watching it again, I could barely take screenshots. All the best shots of the episodes had to be with Nagisa’s Montage. That’s unfair KyoAni. We almost never got to … wait actually, we NEVER saw Tomya and Nagisa THAT lovey-dovey EVER! Not that Nagisa’s dead you give us the rabu-rabu shots? That’s really cruel. Really really cruel. I’m not the only one who thinks this right?
And now we’re going to have 8 Nagisa-less episodes.
This is what I think. Tomoya’s going to become a worthless human being like his father. Ushio’s going to be with Akio and Sanae all the while because Tomoya won’t acknowledge her existence since it took away Nagisa’s. No ones going to be able to do anything about his angsting and I’m going to want to punch Tomoya at least fifteen times an episode until the last or before last episode. As for the ending itself, I HIGHLY doubt KyoAni will give us something other than a happy ending. See, now the movie, the anime and the game (first time around) killed Nagisa. (This is like how they keep on killing the real Alice in “Are you Alice?” … Ironic, Nagisa and Alice are voice by the same person)
I want a different ending from the Movie’s please.
To lighten up my own mood;
At least we got an awesome shot like this.